Pain is a friend not an enemy...

Pain is all I feel tonight...
It's all I have right now...
It's what my heart speaks...
It's what cause my loneliness...
It's the reason behind my silence...
It's what my body shout about...
It's the pain of loosing you...
It's the pain of loosing my heart...
It's the pain of loosing my nights thinking of you...
It's the pain of loosing my dreams...
It's the pain of loosing and forgetting my love for you...
But anyways, God maybe has a purpose for this pain...
Maybe we are not really meant for each other...
Maybe you really belong to her...
Maybe she really deserves you...
Maybe God wants me to stop my crazy illusion of you...
Maybe you really don't suit in my heart, it just so happen that I like you, that I love you somehow...
That's why I'm grieving this pain...
But I believe God will help me out with this...
And there is only thing I would love to do before leaving...
Somehow you'll know how much I like...
The whole you...
Goodbye Piolo...

How I wish I could make myself laugh always and would no longer dwell in in loneliness...

How I wish it's not just my mouth that widens or stretches when I smiles or laugh, I wish my heart also do. How I wish my laughter would suggest of my inner feeling or my inner voice but it was just too soft for others to hear. I believe that others would love to see my smiling but i never knew if they would also like to see my falling tears...
If only I could do something to make people understand me, accepts me, and love me for who I am.

Busy

I'd rather be busy than doing nothing...
I'd rather be busy than smiling a fake one...
I'd rather be busy than standing alone...
I'd rather be busy than sinning..
I'd rather be busy than be hurt...
I'd rather be busy than watching you going away...
I'd rather be busy...
Just to forget you...

for those who read...

"Beloved Child, your humor is my own.
Let us laugh out loud together and celebrate our Oneness.
When you hear your own laugh, you are hearing My Voice."

Swimming Venture!

Aloha! Howdy my friends? Did you miss me? Well, don't frown nor be sad cause I'm back!>hehehe<... At last I'm back to my other world! With my 48 years of loss in wilderness, I have so many things to share to you guys and because of it I don't know where to start... Hmmm...hmm...hmmm...think!think!think! Gotcha! I think it would be better to start of with our swimming venture at Cagsawa Resort... Ready?.. (let's count first 1...2...3!) May 24, 2009 around 1:00 pm, I with my outgoing and enthusiastic fellas, invaded the lull place of Cagsawa Resort. Actually , it was last month suggestion of some youth but by unknown reason it was always post poned. However, due to persistent of the young people and due also to the heat of the summer at last we've decided to persue the plan. Since we can't afford for a luxurios beach resort, we went to a cheap but serene spot of nothing else but the nearest Cagsawa Resort. After an hour of ride and a minute of walk, we had reached our destination. With an awe and great fascination of God's creation, we'd continue our walk until we'd entered the uncrowded area of the spot. Ensuing our entrance fee, we proceed to the pool. But before plunging to the cool pool, we'd agree to pray first for the other ministry of God through our bro Paul in Barcelona which was continously hindered by the Satan. Afterwards, we'd unpacked our "baons" and started to indulge our self followed by a non-stop picture takings and for the most awaited swimming moment which everybody enjoyed! Along with those details, I would like also to share some of the pictures taken during our siesta moments... Furthermore, I have included some captions with my fellas permissions!(hehehe) >kanya-kanyang trip ito

Presenting Our Cagsawa Getaway!

The Fellas...!




Our own outgoing Promoter with her amiable "anak" and assistant of this getaway...
>with an unidentified drowning object on background<

Our alluring camera provider with our camera man at the back...

Our vibrant financer...!

Our cute and adorable guardians...



And lastly the "SSS" >Sariling Sikap Society<...

Our heartbreaking stance...

The cast of "Ano ba Talaga Ina?"
Cast:
In pink: Te Shie
In white: Te Iris
In black: Dexter
In green: Rairai (yours truly)
In black (too): Rhiz
In red and white: Dha

The cast of "Kanya-Kanya"

The forest and friends! hahaha

What's up there guys?!

Always the best!

What can you say huh?!

Looks like they were jealuos over the goddess!

With a smile a day keeps a bad day away!

The best remedy for those who are afraid, lonely, or unhappy is to go outside, somewhere they can be quite, alone with the heavens, nature and God. Becuase only then does one feel that all isas it should be and that God wishes to see people happy, amidst the simple beauty of nature.
Anne Frank..

Joke time na lang tayo... :)

(sana matawa naman kayo... para sa effort ko..)

Dear Pepsi,
Alam mo bang cokes na cokes ako sayo?! Royal ka pa naman pero lagi mo akong
iniisprite... Naalala mo pa ba nang pumunta tayo sa mountain dew, sumakay pa nga tayo ng red horse at muntik pa nga tayong tangayin ni gold eagle beer?!

Nagmamahal,
Toba...

tawa na yan...

Hindi na ako aasa pa sayo...
Hindi ka naman magiging akin...
Hindi na kita iisipin...
Hindi na kita bibigyan ng space sa utak at puso ko...
Hindi na kita titingnan...
Hindi na katulad ng dati ang ngayon...
Hinding - hindi na...
Hindi ka naman siguro talaga para sakin...
Hindi man talaga dahil nga para ka sa kanya...
Hintayin ko na lang ung para sa akin...
Hindi na rin siya matatagalan sa pagdating...
Hindi na rin ako makapaghintay...
Hinding - hindi na...

Tula ni Bu para kay............Rai :)
(grabe sa frustration si Bu kay Rai oh...Hindi naman talaga kasi sila bagay!)